Tuesday, May 31, 2005

A loss I have to come to terms with

I don't understand it. I keep thinking "why would this happen to me and why now?!" I sometimes just marvel at my misfortune. I went to buy nursing bras this weekend, it was one of the few things I had left to do. I knew I was doing it a little early and that was the first thing the lady told me was that I should wait another few weeks since “I’ll still get bigger.” Well me being stubborn I don’t want to wait another few weeks. I want it taken care of now and if God loves me and blesses me with even bigger boobs, I’ll buy a bigger size then!

The problem? Well not sure if you remember how I had posted about my bra size increasing to a D. That made me very, very happy and I so willingly went out and bought new bras just so I had proof, that little tag with the D on it. Before I was pregnant I was a 34 C (well pretty much 32 C but that size is impossible to find). I’ve been a C most of my boob bearing life, except for that awful stint where the excessive amount of push ups I had to do in Kung Fu reduced me down to a B (right before my wedding and my strapless dress I need to add!!). Anyway they came back along with the fat I got rid of once I stopped going to class. So I was ecstatic when I went up to a D! And for free, I didn’t need to buy these! Slowly over the next few months my new bras seemed a little loser. I even thought my boobs looked a little smaller but I kept telling myself it’s just because my belly was getting that much bigger.

So I go in and the lady asks me what size nursing bra I needed and I blurt out a D!! Then I kind of said “well…, I’m not sure.” And oh fortunately she whips out her tape measure and confirms my worst fear. “Looks like you are a 38 C.” I felt as though someone just said I had 1 month to live, the room started spinning, I turn pale she is saying “Ma’am, ma’am are you OK? Do you need to sit down?” I just take the C from her hand and catatonically walk into the dressing room and put it on. YUP, it fits! The fucking C fits! How can this be??? They get bigger when you are pregnant and generally they get bigger just when people gain weight. I’m doing both! How can my boobs be the same size now as they were before I was pregnant!! Oh except for the increase to a 38, nice bigger girth, smaller boobs. And what’s worse is that I think even when my milk supply comes in, I’ll still be able to fit in these C’s, there seemed to be a little extra room for growth…but hell if I’m gonna buy a B right now!

Why me….why??

9 Comments:

Blogger KELLI BELLY said...

Did you try the D on? What were you wearing? Don't worry about it cuz when your milk comes in, your cup will runnith over! You'll need two trash cans and a rope for those torpedos! PONTALOONS!

10:28 PM  
Blogger KB said...

I went up one cup size with both of my kids when my milk came in. I'd say you should be glad you're a C, because you'll likely get your D's soon enough! LOL

10:49 PM  
Blogger Mrs.Strizzay said...

I went up more after the baby, I had big ole' firm puppies. Yeah, I actually thought about pumping and keeping a supple just to have those large supple breasts. Umm, just so ya know.

12:04 AM  
Blogger Mrs.Strizzay said...

supply, not supple twice. See, my mind is stuck on supple.

12:05 AM  
Blogger Kate said...

Ah yes, the joys of buying nursing bras. If it makes you feel better, I ended up NOT nursing, and still went from a pre-pregnancy 36B to a post-baby 36D!! Miracles happen every day. : ) Granted, without the VS Very*Sexy bra, my tits are in my shoes, but dammit, they're a D now!! I'll take what I can get.

12:35 AM  
Blogger Heaven Sent said...

I have to say my boobs haven't grown that much either. I went up one bra size in the first few PG weeks to a B (yes, I was a pathetic A pre-pregnancy), but I keep waiting for them to get bigger and it isn't really happening, just the whole girth thing. How I anxiously await to see a C tag...

BUT I also keep hearing that post-pregnancy they will be more than we can handle. so let's hold strong to our dreams... they will come! :o)

11:10 AM  
Blogger Rachael said...

So I guess I can't understand why woman want big boobs. Maybe because I have DD boobs (they were DDD but I lost a little after breast feeding). I would love to be a C. I would pay to be a C. My boobs cause me all kinds of heartache.
Although I must say being a D is pretty good too. Just big enough to be happy. Don't worry though Cara, they will get a bit bigger while breastfeeding.

11:34 AM  
Blogger Daph said...

My boobs got HUGE and then they went right on back down to their normal small-boobied selves. They're slowly inching back to being bigger now, and it'll be a vicious cycle that repeats itself. It's like having infla-ta-boobs!

12:56 PM  
Blogger Anne said...

oh you lucky hagfish. My slight bosoms (34-b before lily) went up a cup during nursing and then went DOWN (to add insult to injury) due to breast mass loss after nursing. Now I must be at a 34-b again while I nurse Emma but am planning a fond adieu to these mothers once I stop. Soon I'll look like an adolescent boy. nice.

10:10 PM  

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