No need to update your calendars

I called the Dr. and to reschedule my induction for Wednesday, 7/13 and can't do it. My doctor was fine with it, they called the hospital to schedule it and the hospital is "booked" for Wednesday. And they are actually booked for the rest of the week. I don't want to wait until the FOLLOWING week so we're leaving it for 7/11. Apparently hospitals (or our hospital) only schedule so many inductions because of space limitations which is understandable. They need beds for c-sections and the people that come in naturally so I can't expect them to accomodate any wish I have. And even if I happened to have been able to think clearly yesterday and request Wednesday up front, they were probably booked by then anyway. I'm a little relieved because I hated the pressure of picking a date. The less options I have the less I feel I'm going to make a bad choice. Plus my doctor had a c-section scheduled for Wednesday already so since I'm going to be induced they would have no idea when I'd actually deliver and there could be a chance that he'd be in the middle of a c-section and not be able to deliver my baby. We can still run into this scenario but it's not like it's already a scheduled possibility.

My body still has 5 days to get it's shit together and go with no intervention. The only downfall with Monday is I couldn't spare the baby a lifetime of lame "we bought you at the 7-11" jokes from his father that Bryan already threatened with (and I bet Bryan's dad would come up with the same witty jokes).

I was spotting last night which I'm assuming is a result of my exam, painful exam that is. Or maybe it's my "bloody show" but that supposedly is from your cervix dilating which mine probably isn't doing so I'm going with the fact he tried to use the jaws of life on my cervix yesterday. I also had 2 painful contractions. PAINFUL! They weren't super close together and I had many other contractions but I think I'd only consider 2 of them to be painful. They even hurt my hiney hole. I'm really hopeful for something to happen within the next 5 days.

I am sooooo fucking tired though. I fell asleep about midnight. I woke up at 3am from nightmares because we watched that old-ish Johnny Depp movie about Jack the Ripper, "From Hell." Once I woke up at 3, I started thinking too much, then had my contractions and really started thinking. I just couldn't go back to sleep and finally got out of bed at 4am. I forced myself to go back at 6am once I heard the birds starting to chirp and eventually fell asleep at 7am only to wake up at 8am with Bryan. So pretty sleep deprived right about now! I hope this sleeping pattern doesn't continue until the baby is born because we all know what kind of sleep I'll be getting after he's here!

I'm looking forward to revealing the name also. But I'm kind of afraid it's going to be a big let down because we've kept it a secret the entire time that people are probably going to expect something amazing. We obviously like it but there has been such a build up over it, I'm kind of nervous! Oh yeah, and I'm nervous about shooting a baby out my vag. We've been slacking on the perenium stretches!!