Time flies...

When you are busy as shit. Man I've been slacking on this blogging thing and I miss it. I really do, I find it very theraputic. And I really miss reading up on all of you guys. I need to update my blog links too but now I just save them to my favorites, much quicker that way. But so many pregnant people out there I need to be checking in on not to mention all the other shit going on in everyone else's lives I'm way behind on.

Anyway, I'm a little better mentally regarding the whole diet thing. I'm finding more options (still hardly a good selection), definitely a better selection at Whole Foods than Safeway. You know Rice Milk isn't half bad. Pour it over a little dairy/soy free granola and it's quite yummy. It even does OK in coffee although it doesn't lighten the color of it which bothers me. I've gotten a few good suggestions on dairy/soy free foods too, thanks everyone. The Hellman's Canola mayo is pretty good, I can still eat Hot Tamales. I've found many dairy/soy free chips and stuff. But Rice Bread isn't that great. Cranky Mommy gave me a whole list of breads to try so that's my next step. I'm now writing down every tiny morsal I put in my mouth and keeping the food ingredient labels and J's daily reactions incase we find that it's not dairy. I can watch for a trend. Man I hope this helps. At least if this does turn into a long-term allergy for him I'll already know everything to buy and cook.

Eating out is still unenjoyable but we shouldn't be spending that money anyway! It's just so much harder when we're out with people like my mom and sis that don't give it a second thought when they go and get big ass sundaes from Maggie Moo's while I sit there with my mouth watering. I also keep finding that I'm unintentionally messing up which is usally a result of eating out since I don't know the ingredients. The chicken noodle soup from Panera, not a good idea. The Bistro Steak salad (minus cheese/nuts) with vinagarette from Panera, not a good idea. What can I eat at Panera? Fruit cup and Black Bean Soup. I keep wondering if I've actually had a 100% dairy/soy free day yet but I'm trying. He has his 2 month well-baby next week so I want to discuss all this in more detail. It was also suggested I look into a pediatric allergist who can run blood tests. Now that sounds way more logical of an idea than this diet elimination which can take forever and rely on me not to fuck up. I'm going to discuss that with his ped. So far there hasn't been anymore bloody stool really but he's waking up much more during the night with sounds of discomfort. He's not always hungry either but nursing him is the only thing I can really offer for comfort. And from what I read, frequent night wakings is usually a result of GER or a food allergy. So nursing him for comfort seems counter-productive. I'm pleading with the people above that once the allergy is managed well that we can get some sleep going!!

Man I can't believe J is almost 2 months old. That's some scary shit when you wake up one day and 2 months have just flown by. He's so frigin cute though I can't stand it! But please God, make him learn to love the car. Driving with him is driving me insane. I don't want to leave the house anymore and every where we go is at least a 30 minute drive. And that's a fucking long 30 minutes when he's screaming.

I'm officially a stay-at-home mom now. I told my boss last Friday and gave them "2 weeks" like that does them any good since I'm not there anyway. She was cool about it and said to call them if I ever change my mind. Nice to know I CAN go back if I WANTED to. Lord knows they will always be hiring.

I feel like J should be on more of a schedule than he is. Well I don't feel like he should, it's just people ask what time his naps are and what he is usally doing at this time of day, etc and I'm thinking, I have no idea. Should I know? Whatever he feels like doing at that moment is what we do. The closest thing to a schedule we've developed (naturally) is when we wake up I get him ready and then I get the 1st half of me ready since he usually cries before I finish. And by getting ready I mean me putting the same dirty clothes on I wore for the last 3 days, throwing my dirty hair in a pony tail and attempting to put makeup on fast enough without ending up resembling a 60 year old drunken whore. I then go sit with him outside on the glider with him in the sling and he drifts off into a morning nap. I guess that part is getting pretty consistent. But the rest of it is one big fucking blur. And while he's having his morning nap I have to decide if I want to scarf down some food, throw some laundry in, nap with him or follow up on medical insurance claims and other tasks, get the 2nd half of me ready or update my blog. And you can see which of those won today.