Germicide

Big bummer, the 3 of us are home sick. I think it's all just a cold but man I feel like shit. I can only imagine what J feels like but he's still his jolly old self. The timing is kind of crappy, our good friends JUST had their baby girl and we were planning on going to the hospital but I don't think it's wise breathing our sick germs on a newborn. I really wanted to be there. And we're supposed to be going to the final Rock n Romp show of the season Saturday. Hopefully we'll be feeling better by then. I'd hate to have to wait a whole other year to go.

Thanks everyone for your comments, I feel so much better. Sort of. Well it helps knowing that I'm not abnormal and I, and others, are expecting too much! I just need to chill out. Somedays I can handle things so much better and some days I think I just am more mentally tired than others so things get to me. Today I'm just too sick to give a shit.

And I just looked back at J and he flashed his gummy grin with an "Ah-goo" (my favorite word in the world) which makes EVERYTHING better. Before he'd just kind of smiled a lot but now I can tell he recognizes us. He's more selective with the smiles, and when there aren't many random things that make him smile, it feels pretty special I am one of the things that does. And isn't that all that matters. I think so!