First time for everything

I don't have anything to say! Actually I have a shitload but it's all so jumbled in my head that I can't get one competent word out.

Same old shit around here. Still dieting, still getting nowhere. I spoke with his dr. Friday who was going to fax all his records to a GI and talk to him today, then get back to me with an appointment. I'm not looking forward to going to a GI though, I already know they will try to push formula down my throat. The pediatrician said this particular GI really wants the mom's to continue breastfeeding but if there is a chance the baby will become anemic from bloodloss it could result in poor development and overall health. So if they see any signs of that they'll probably recommend Nutramigen or Neocate formula "breaks" while I pump. Doesn't that sound fun, trying to feed a baby who won't take a bottle formula while I pump a hundred times a day to keep my supply up. I guess I shouldn't get ahead of myself I should just go in and see what they have to say before making assumptions.

I joined a "Parents of Food Allergic Kids" online community, specifically the Breastfeeding group, to get some help and support. It's helpful but almost more overwhelming. In everyone's "signature" they list their kids and their allergies and my GOD I can't believe the shit some people are allergic to. What's more incredible is that they were actually able to diagnose some of this stuff since almost everyone said that tests showed negative for allergies so it was all determined by diet elimination. The list of foods they CAN eat are way shorter than the ones they can't. Food coloring? Spices? Nightshade? What the fuck is nightshade anyway? So like I said, it's helpful but almost more discouraging because it could be so much more than I ever thought. But they all recommended to start with the Dr. Sears Total Elimination Diet or TED in POFAK lingo. I knew about the diet already but was doing a modified, more liberal version of it. But since getting no response, time to go hardcore. I guess more hardcore than the hardcore I was already doing. But since I suspect rice already, I'm not doing it. And I don't want to eat lamb (something about the cute furry faces going "baaah" turns me off) so once again it's turkey, potatoes, squash and pears. No more chicken or pork. I think pork caused some problems anyway, it was either that or the broccoli or blueberries. Hey it makes grocery shopping easy.

So I just got back from Whole Foods, my home away from home, with a trillion packs of turkey and potatoes. Breakfast will be fun, not even oatmeal anymore as if that was something to look forward to. I bought ground turkey and I'll mix that up with some hashbrowns. Another thing on the board I learned was the brands to stay away from that are notorious for cross-contamination and poor labeling. Rice Dream brand = very naughty. Who knew?

And hey, only 11 pounds to lose before I'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight!! But from what I understand it's the last 10 that are the hardest to lose. But shit 49 out of 60 ain't bad. I also learned that McD fries and hashbrowns are OK! Yipee!!! You don't know what this means to me. I found this out Saturday afternoon and have had 5 large fries since then. Probably not the best but I figured I could use the fat. My milk supply seems OK but I still get paranoid that it will deminish from lack of calories. But since I've cleaned out my system, it can't handle grease that well anymore. My stomach of steal is gone! Even though McD swears it's not cross-contaminated I'm still suspect but I needed to gorge on something this weekend. BK also says their fries are safe because they aren't cooked on the same equipment as their onion rings (which contain wheat). If that is the case, how come we've gotten an onion ring bonus in our fries before, hmmm? Don't trust 'em.

It's funny when you are pregnant you worry about all kinds of birth defects but never once did food allergies cross my mind. And if this turns out to be a serious food allergy, it makes life very, very tough. And scary depending on the kind of allergic reaction they can have. Anyway, enough diet talk.

Let see, let see, anything else stressful going on? Ohhhh yeah. So my dog who is less than 4 years old has suffered from chronic allergies (sound familiar) and ear infections. His ears have gotten so bad he now needs surgery. Not just normal surgery, if there is such a thing, no this is a Total Ear Canal Ablation. You know what this mean? They have to remove his ear canals completely and sew up the opening to his ear! NO MORE EARS. He'll have the flaps but that's it. He may or may not be able to pick up any sounds afterwards. I want to cry. He's still a puppy and the more humane thing to do is to make him deaf. How sad is that?! Supposedly he will feel much better and happier after this, man I sure hope so.

Man, life if fun and never stressful. And look, guess I did have something to say afterall.